A really dear friend passed away over the weekend. And I had to find out over Facebook. I knew him from when I lived in London. He was an amazing guy. Had the best personality. The most infectious smile and could make anyone laugh for days. We had plenty of mischievous adventures together. Traveled to several countries. And partied to stupid o’clock hours. He could literally stay up for days and just go and go and go.
I was devastated when I found out. Just in a ball of tears. My husband had run out to the store and in that time, I learned of his passing. When he walked back through the door, he saw the look on my ashen face. I could barely muster the words… “Daniel suddenly passed away.”
There is a finality to death that you don’t fully appreciate until you are standing within its shadows. With the door of life firmly shutting on Daniel, in that moment, I couldn’t help but think of CEO. Knowing that you will never speak to your affair partner again is one thing. But facing that you may outlive them, and grieve in the shadows for their passing later in life, is another.
I don’t know what is worse. Dying young? Or living a long life- yet having to experience repeated grief and sadness, as everyone around you passes away.